come and go now as you please

this is the end, my friend, the end

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Thu, 09 Feb 2006 22:30:59 GMT

i have a new journal!

it is astrovisionary.
go add me. add me now.

do it.. DOOO IIIITTTT *shakes fist*

...

after five years of loyal (and often excessive/obsessive) use, i've finally decided to lay the journal (and name) vamp1ra to rest. i'll be keeping it online until i've managed to download and archive my old entries, and then i'll be deleting it.

you won't notice much difference, apart from the name change. i'll still be posting about everything from photos to ukeleles, and under my new name, i'll still be part mod of 1015saturday.

this journal and i have had some good times.. but its time to open up a fresh page, i think.

p.s. go add astrovisionary now! :)

crappy ringtones

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Wed, 08 Feb 2006 22:39:45 GMT

the battle for the worst ringtones in my floor section has just taken a horrible turn. among the tetris theme, macguyver theme and adagio for strings (tiesto remix?!), a new contender has entered the game with .. sigh .. drop the pressure.

this can only get worse before it gets better...

[edit] i was just HAUGHTILY informed that it is not in fact a drop the pressure ringtone, but gloria estefan and the miami sound machine. haha! like i said.. worse before it gets better...

photos from ANOT

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Mon, 06 Feb 2006 00:33:33 GMT

from A Night Of Trance at Arq last friday.

i actually don't look munted in these photos. spinal_faun has a magic camera, i swear. (god bless him)

me + pauly
link to original image here

the tall guy in the middle is a random we see everywhere called andrew. he always dances with a huge smile on his face and is a lot of fun.
link to original image here

iggy pop

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 31 Jan 2006 05:11:25 GMT

holy-mother-of-jeebus.

these photos literally made my jaw drop and my heart stop. [voicemail especially - go forth and peruse!]

daniel boud is one of my favourite live music photographers. EVER.

an interesting piece of big day out trivia

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Fri, 27 Jan 2006 13:42:50 GMT

taken from henry rollins's blog. he writes:

"I found out something
interesting tonight. Apparently, this tour was to have a bit of a
different line-up. Tool was supposed to headline the thing with the
Pixies going on before them. The White Stripes were third on the bill.
The Stooges were a last minute add."

OMG it could have been the pixies!!! *weeps*

still, iggy & the stooges were pretty fucking fantastic :)

link to entry here: http://www.21361.com/site_2004/dispatchs_archive/01-21-06.html

an impromptu birthday haiku for loupoo

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 24 Jan 2006 21:38:22 GMT

loulou rocks my socks,
an awesome friend and chicky.
happy birthday..! sha!

[ok so i'm not so good at haikus]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY loupoo! xxx

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 23:28:55 GMT

taken from postsecret

things i miss about adam and wil at breakfast

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 17 Jan 2006 23:54:54 GMT

Tell It Like It Is Fridays.

I have decided to adopt T.I.L.I.I.F. into my regular Friday posting regime.

I invite you all to join me. This fri.. lets tell it like it is dammit!

I'm personally tired of biting my tongue all the time :P

tragedy is ...

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 17 Jan 2006 02:00:57 GMT

.. having the opportunity to interview lou barlow (my indie hero!) and not being able to because its at 11am tomorrow and i'll be at work.

:(((

photoblog pimpage

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Thu, 12 Jan 2006 05:48:59 GMT

god there are some amazing photoblogs out there.

my current <3 list:

photos from london - ohhh london <3
new york moments - i am a sucker for b&w photos, and there are some beautiful shots in this blog
astigmatism - really beautiful cross processed shots and b&w shots
deography - i esp. love the landscape shots

yeppies?

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 10 Jan 2006 23:14:40 GMT

there is an interesting article in Radar today (Sydney Morning Herald regular wed liftout). it caught my eye because its something i've been thinking about a lot lately, and on the weekend i had been talking about this very same topic with my friends. it talks about the idea that we are in our twenties yet so many of us are finding it hard to settle on a career or settle down. the article calls people like this "yeppies" - young, experimenting perfection seekers.

link to the article here: http://radar.smh.com.au/archives/2006/01/post_47.html

i think it brings up some valid points. i would agree that a lot of people are idealists - and i think this has a lot to do with the seemingly limitless options that are open to us these days. i wouldn't say that we're perfectionists though...

blink

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 10 Jan 2006 03:22:10 GMT

today i walked into gowings to buy an orgasmatron and walked out with a ukulele.

ERRMMMM...

even *i* can't explain that one...

postsecret

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Sun, 08 Jan 2006 22:43:02 GMT

postsecret has been a little slow the past couple of weeks.. but some of this week's submissions made me sad.

except for this one. this one made me laugh. :)

really lame joke

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Fri, 06 Jan 2006 04:31:56 GMT

Q: how many indie kids does it take to change a light bulb?
A: you've probably never heard of the number, its pretty obscure...

i'm going from strange to stranger every year [meesh's 2005]

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Fri, 30 Dec 2005 02:09:12 GMT

2005. the year i ... did stuff.

honestly, all i can remember from the first half of the year was a lot of music, a lot of laughs, spending time with my friends and then breaking my foot whilst sober in a nightclub. oh, and buying my return ticket to london.

on the june long weekend, i celebrated both my birthday and farewell in style - karaoke, ferry corsten, a massive drinks night, and we love sounds.

on june 14th, i got on a flight to london, uk with a 40L backpack and hotfooted around Europe and the UK for the next three months.

when i was travelling, i fell inlove with that feeling of complete and utter freedom - and the very moment when you realise that you ARE completely and utterly free. i loved seeing new and different places. i loved gawking at the beauty of some of the landscapes in europe. i loved meeting people from all sorts of different backgrounds and exchanging ideas and sharing stories. some highlights from my trip include:

falling inlove with luxembourg city's geography

amsterdam, the netherlands

getting completely lost in the back streets of venice

seeing sigur ros in paris; seeing the pixies, teenage fanclub and idlewild in edinburgh

antwerp, belgium; the salsa club which was apparently "down by the water, and to the right"; a day at the lake, belgian beer and the best hostel in the world.

the train trip from austria into switzerland; the canadian girl who loved david sedaris too, and watching the beautiful scenery go by

sucking on 10p ice pops in glastonbury with richie; being told i was a pussy for using scissors instead of my teeth to tear the plastic off by pat

a day and night of trance with louise and nerida; nerida's mini electric fan, dancing to happy hard, the strange 2 hour busride home

camden markets, london

text to paul "i'm standing on a hill at sunset watching ferry corsten - magical! i just wanted you to be a part of it man!"

ola, the beautiful old woman i met on the train from sweden to denmark and her timeless advice to me - "appreciate every moment that you have, no matter how small or large."

when i got back from travelling at the end of september, i blew the rest of my savings on a long weekend trip to melbourne with some lovely sydney girls for shopping, dancing and good times.

then my year took a very strange turn, commonly known as the post travel depression where suddenly i felt aimless and directionless, and overcome with that annoying feeling of self awareness, and the realisation that now i really did have to do everything that i had been putting off for so long.

i think i am still finding my feet in the world and figuring out what it is i should be doing and want to be doing.

on the romantic front, it was a year of almosts... but not quites. but many moments i look back at fondly.

oh and on the career side of things, i finished up working at the Department of Education in June this year and it was a grand place to work... or at least, the people i worked with were pretty amazing. In October i started temping at Fairfax, where i currently still am. i KNOW its not a role i want to keep for a long time, and i'm still deciding if its somewhere i want to work. it seems a lot of people i know there who i like and respect are leaving - and its making me question whether the company really is for me or not. but we'll see.

i have learnt a lot this year... among other things, i learnt that i can do anything i put my mind to. and (almost) nothing is impossible. i also developed a whole new appreciation and love for my parents, and for my friends - and realised how strong a friendship i have with some of them. and that life is FAR too short to put up with bullshit from other people.

and the general consensus is i haven't changed much.. but my outlook has changed, and maybe i've even grown up a little bit, in a few ways...

... as for 2006. well its anybody's guess really. no expectations and no fears. i'm just going to take it as it comes and hope (or know?) that things always have a way of working out, in some form or another..

and lots of good times, i hope :)

i <3 my friends

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Wed, 28 Dec 2005 06:05:17 GMT

i seriously have some amazing friends...

they're supportive.
they always know the right things to say.
they stick up for you.
they always try to cheer you up.
they don't EVER fuck you over.

.. and they're the kind of people who will do stuff like send you mixtapes when you're down, bake you surprise cakes for your birthday or dig through bags full of wires to make an icepack to put on your foot if you've broken it in a club.. ;)

and i love all of them. :)

god bless 'em...

[this random display of affection brought to you by the HIGHS! .. of my emotional high and low swinging month]

LIFE'S A BEACH

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Fri, 23 Dec 2005 01:36:16 GMT

finishing up at 1pm.

TO THE BEACH!

*excitement IN MY PANTS!!!*

this one is for the Active BBS kids

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Thu, 22 Dec 2005 01:32:13 GMT

I'm sure you Active bitches remember Valiant.. how could we not...?

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/valiants-weird-world/2005/12/21/1135032083679.html

HAHA. i'm sorry but this article is gold.

god there were some serious wankers on Active...

bunch of savages ...

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Wed, 21 Dec 2005 05:43:02 GMT

some fucker has stolen my holepuncher.

the amount of stuff that just disappears around here is amazing...

NOT HAPPY. *shakes fist*

which one of you bitches wants to dance?

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Wed, 21 Dec 2005 04:48:19 GMT

i choose to plug my mp3 player into my computer speakers and subject my surrounding work colleagues with shite taste in music to my quality and eclectic CHOONAGE...... NOW.

p.s. god bless you red bull. no more falling asleep at the desk for me!

TOP SEVEN GIGS of 05

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Mon, 19 Dec 2005 10:17:38 GMT

my revised top.. erm, seven? gigs for 2005

in order of preference...

1. sigur ros @ l'olympia, paris france
2. jimmy eat world @ the metro, sydney australia
3. the pixies + teenage fanclub + idlewild @ meadowbank stadium, edinburgh scotland
4. chemical brothers @ the horden pavillion, sydney australia
5. belle and sebastian @ perth concert hall, perth scotland
6. dance valley @ spaarnwoude, amsterdam the netherlands
7. the kills @ atnewtown, sydney australia

edit] PS. i made the call.. JIMMY EAT WORLD kicked the PIXIES'S arse! (but only very very slightly.. VERY slightly..)

this is the soundtrack of our lives

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Thu, 15 Dec 2005 23:38:26 GMT

i'm compiling my Soundtrack to 2005 and i think i will make a mixtape out of it and give it to people for xmas. (because i'm so sure people will care which songs meant a lot to me this year...)

the songs i have so far are -

the killers - mr brightside (thin white duke mix)
such great heights - iron & wine
sublime - ferry corsten vs thrillseekers
come round and show me - art of fighting
star guitar - chemical brothers
future - cut copy

and there will be more. i just can't think of them right now.

i was also going to post my top 5 gigs (revised) of 2005, but i'm going to hold off til after this weekend, in case something i see is LIKE WOAH (e.g. jimmy eat world)

...

its a mega slow day at work. expect multiple posts. in about 3 hours i'll transfer my multiposting to 1015saturday to spare you though. (unless you're on the community in which case - HA!)

jimmy eat world

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:58:42 GMT

the events of the last three minutes -

*browses lj*
*replies to post about greenday*
*laments not being able to see jimmy eat world*
*is told there is a jimmy eat world sideshow tomorrow night*
*jumps onto metro website and nabs ticket*

all done before you can say "if you're listening, wohohohoho!"

....

in related news.. I'M SEEING JIMMY EAT WORLD TOMORROW NIGHT!!!! *excitement in my pants*

edit. and also, we nabbed dancefloor tix to sigur ros next year. its a fine day for music purchasings. a fine day indeed!

some early christmas cheer

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Wed, 14 Dec 2005 01:31:02 GMT

http://ww12.e-tractions.com/snowglobe/globe.htm

shake it.. SHAKE ITTTT... *shakes fist*

[and make sure you have sound on]

hello, i've waited here for you...

feelingsinister@gmail.com — Tue, 06 Dec 2005 23:59:08 GMT

thanks to loupoo, not only do i now have everlong by the foo fighters in my head, one of my workmates just caught me humming it and it has now entered her head.

my aim is to have the entire building humming it by lunchtime (though most of these people wouldn't know a good song if it smacked them over the head, so the chances of that are fairly slim)

"and i wonder
when i sing along with you..."